Want to know how to get your mojo back after burning yourself out + letting others dull who you really are?
Read on sugar…
You may have noticed I’ve been missing in action…until recently.
My new book Soul Happiness was released. And then nothing. Nada. Zip.
At the time when I most needed to be promoting this gorgeous, luminous, life-changing read – ‘cause that is what she deserves from me – I am nowhere to be seen.
I went quiet on social media, bar a few half-hearted posts on Facebook. I stopped promoting my books. I stopped sharing my work. I stopped doing online readings. I stopped communicating all together. Heck. I even stopped doing personal consults for a while.
Ultimately, I stopped living my purpose. I became completely disconnected from me.
So. What happened?
We upped and sold our house and moved, all within a few whirlwind weeks. Awesome. A tad stressful. Totally what we wanted + so right in the long run. But it created chaos.
I thrive on order. In my thoughts. In my life. In my home. In my rituals + routines. Order frees my spirit for so many better things.
Moving = zero order. And a very ungrounded Marnie.
I just plain ‘ole burnt myself out.
I’d come off the back of three international award wins for my debut book, Beyond Happiness. I’d sold out my gorgeous life planner + journal, Blissed. And I’d just given my new book, Soul Happiness, her wings in the world.
Three books in 18 months (among a zillion other things) moving house, and no down time. At all. Was just too much.
All my self-care 101 know-how went out the window as the pressure I was putting on myself to deliver sky-rocketed.
Note to self: I am not superwoman. Nor do I need to be.
But here’s the clincher.
The inauthentic in my life bit me on the arse. Inauthentic people, practices, beliefs. Ok, mostly people.
It all bundled into me questioning me. Who I am. What I’m doing. How I live my life.
And honestly. It sucked.
I don’t think I’ve been as rock bottom before.
Not even in the wake of surviving that house-fire all those years ago or the depressions that followed. Not in divorcing six months after marrying. [ps: Mr Mac and I are totally lovey and cool. That was another Mr many moons ago.] Not in stepping away from my six-figure corporate job.
All of that – the move + being ungrounded, getting the speed wobbles + burning myself out, and the gloriously inauthentic around me – culminated and literally stopped me in my tracks.
Like a slap in the face. I came to a grounding halt.
I couldn’t think. I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t look after myself. Eat proper food. Get anything done in a day. Or a week. Or a month.
Inside I felt like I was going around and around in circles. Gathering more and more inner rubbish with me as I went. But there was no where to go. And that went on for months.
I lost my shine. I lost my Soul mojo. And I lost my connection to me.
And the worst thing.
I am the one who is supposed to have ‘it’ together.
I’m supposed to be deeply connected to me. Unwaveringly focused on my path.
The Soulful living guru.
But the way I look at it, I’ve been taking a giant Soul test.
And I aced it. Eventually.
It was an ironic test at that.
Especially as the sub-title of my book Soul Happiness is ‘The 11 Secrets of Living with Purpose’.
And chapter 10 is called ‘Be Authentically You’.
The Universe has a sense of humour at least.
And here I am. Out of that space + back to my beautiful self.
And this is how I did it.
I followed my own keys for authentic living. The ones I set out in chapter 10. The ones I’d temporarily forgotten.
I knew I needed to change my inner self. Release all that rubbish I was accumulating. All those false beliefs telling me I wasn’t good enough. I journalled. I meditated. I sought energy therapy treatments. I bathed myself in crystals. I took time for me. I reassessed my diet and other lifestyle choices. Sure enough. When you start to change your inner self your outer life responds.
Lightness of spirit brings an even greater ability for authenticity to show up in your life. And my life had got way too serious. No holidays. No breaks. No fun. You know what switched it for me? The Lego movie (we saw it with my little niece) and its song ‘Everything is Awesome’ . Mr Mac and I were singing that for days after seeing the movie. Even now when I need a reminder, it pops into my head.
My biggest lesson. I let other people’s stuff shut down my power. My light. Me. I let them dilute my belief in myself. I decided to claim that again. I simply decided to deflect the rubbish being directed at me – like a giant force field – and to send love + understanding + peaceful energy instead. By doing so, I claimed my power.
Be the path
Most importantly I bought myself back into alignment. I aligned my intentions with action. My desires with deeds. My inner with the other. By doing so I realised that I am enough. I’m in charge. And I get to choose. I unbundled complications + distractions. I simplified everything. And that created more space for me.
If all of this resonates with you in anyway gorgeous, there’s just one thing to do:
Decide to be authentically you.